Well meaning friends making comments that use balanced argument to ‘help’ me see the world as they do.
They aren’t suicidal so their point of view must be healthier.
I’ve seen the other person’s side for most of my life. I can see that people behave in a way that was in a reaction to their own problems. But if their actions (for very good reasons I know) have had an effect on me that means that I want to kill or self harm. Then please
- don’t ask me to try and understand their side
- don’t ask me to stop seeing my hurt ‘because theirs is more understandable’
In order to stop the self destruct I need to see my side. I need to remember that from my point of view they damage me (not meaning to I know, I KNOW, I KNOW).
The desire to harm / destruct myself is an effort to validate to myself the pain that nobody else can see.
Please don’t drive me closer to it.